In all my life I’ve been wondering what I should do when I get older. But the only thing I’ve been doing is changing my mind on everything I’ve wanted to do. I always wondered what I should be doing in life and if my life had any meaning. My family life has never been perfect but I don’t know whose family is perfect. Everyone must think I’m someone who’s happy all the time but that’s wrong, I have hard life and try to put up with my family’s crap especially my brother’s. Well my life isn’t that hard like most people but it’s hard enough for me. Now that I’m in my 3rd year of high school I want to accomplish something that I have never done before and beginning to love doing. If I stick to this specific accomplishment then it will be the most fulfilling thing I have ever done in my entire life. The reason being is because I have grown to love writing and making up my own stories. I will be extremely happy If I do fulfill this because I don’t really have anything that I could say I really, really love doing or love in general. And the reason behind it is because of the world we live in now and all the corruption that has gone on in this world. I feel that because of all the things that have happened in the world and in my family that I always want to hide from reality and daydream. I sometimes wish this world was a fantasy, and then it wouldn’t be so hard to deal with. But reality is very cruel, super cruel. The main reason why I haven’t accomplished something fulfilling is because I get very lazy and end up not doing anything I actually want to do. Now that I look back at what happened in the past, I say to myself I don’t like how everything turned out to be because back then everyone wasn’t lazy. But I’m glad woman got there rights and African-Americans too. I’m not too sure about the being lazy part or maybe that’s just me being lazy. I just hope I can make my writing career happen in the near future. And I just really hope I can make everything that I’m going to work hard for come true in this cruel reality that we all live in everyday.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Nightmares
Mia grew up in a foster home having almost no memory of her birth parents.
The only thing she has to remember them by, is her teddy bear. She always sleeps with it at night, but when she tries to sleep she has nightmares about her mother running away from someone. When she has that dream it seems that they keep getting clearer and clearer. From the dreams she has, it looks like her mother was being shot at, but she doesn't know who's the one shooting at her. It was like someone wanted her to watch her mother die. Every time she dreams of it she wakes up in gasps. Every day Mia sits by herself watching everyone live there normal lives. Children at the foster home don't even go near her because they think she's weird or a freak. But even though they think of her in that way, Mia doesn't care what they think of her, and she careless if they spread rumors about her so no one would take a second look at her. All Mia could think about washer dreams or nightmares that haunt her. One day a group of foster children walk up next to her and sit down as if they were her friends. Mia asked them "Don't you guys think I'm weird or a freak like everyone else here?" and one replied "No, we don't think anyone is, until we get to know them" and she laughed but not in a hateful way, but a very kind one. And the others just smiled in a kind way, and so did Mia. Mia noticed everyone looking at them and there faces showed how unbelievable it was to see these three talking to her the so called "freak" of the foster home. These three spent a lot of time with Mia, but she was afraid that they would find out about her nightmares and wont like her. On a weekend vacation the four of them went to stay with some people the other three knew and so Mia asked "is there a room I can have by myself?
The only thing she has to remember them by, is her teddy bear. She always sleeps with it at night, but when she tries to sleep she has nightmares about her mother running away from someone. When she has that dream it seems that they keep getting clearer and clearer. From the dreams she has, it looks like her mother was being shot at, but she doesn't know who's the one shooting at her. It was like someone wanted her to watch her mother die. Every time she dreams of it she wakes up in gasps. Every day Mia sits by herself watching everyone live there normal lives. Children at the foster home don't even go near her because they think she's weird or a freak. But even though they think of her in that way, Mia doesn't care what they think of her, and she careless if they spread rumors about her so no one would take a second look at her. All Mia could think about washer dreams or nightmares that haunt her. One day a group of foster children walk up next to her and sit down as if they were her friends. Mia asked them "Don't you guys think I'm weird or a freak like everyone else here?" and one replied "No, we don't think anyone is, until we get to know them" and she laughed but not in a hateful way, but a very kind one. And the others just smiled in a kind way, and so did Mia. Mia noticed everyone looking at them and there faces showed how unbelievable it was to see these three talking to her the so called "freak" of the foster home. These three spent a lot of time with Mia, but she was afraid that they would find out about her nightmares and wont like her. On a weekend vacation the four of them went to stay with some people the other three knew and so Mia asked "is there a room I can have by myself?
Thursday, October 14, 2010
25 Things You Don't Know About Me....
1. My favorite movie is all of Resident Evil movies
2. I love animals
3. My hobby is sketching
4. Now my second hobby is writing: creating stories
5. I like to be alone most of the time
6. I love to read
7. I don't have a favorite music artist
8. I am Peurto Rican
9. I want to try and write my own book one day
10. I started to like visiting my two cousins in Connecticut
but I have only visited about two times
11. I have a twin sister but not identical
12. I don't like to talk about myself because it
hurts to talk about things going on in my life
13. I am afraid of a lot of things(mostly sounds, fires, heights,
and loving people)
14. I don't have family members that are close to me
15. I wan to travel to different places some day
16. I think I am ugly but my sister says I'm cute
17. I'm not sure if I ever want to get married or have any kids but I do
like kids and I might as well adopt one since there are so many
18. I wish I could play sports, but can't since I get dizzy a lot
19. I am 4'10
20. I want to study literature and photography in college and more
21. I want to become more independent and live on my own
22. I am a very shy person and don't like to act stupid in front of people
23. I don't like to talk in front of people who I don't know because
i get shy and embarrassed
24. I think everything is embarrassing
25. I don't want people to hate me if i say the wrong things
2. I love animals
3. My hobby is sketching
4. Now my second hobby is writing: creating stories
5. I like to be alone most of the time
6. I love to read
7. I don't have a favorite music artist
8. I am Peurto Rican
9. I want to try and write my own book one day
10. I started to like visiting my two cousins in Connecticut
but I have only visited about two times
11. I have a twin sister but not identical
12. I don't like to talk about myself because it
hurts to talk about things going on in my life
13. I am afraid of a lot of things(mostly sounds, fires, heights,
and loving people)
14. I don't have family members that are close to me
15. I wan to travel to different places some day
16. I think I am ugly but my sister says I'm cute
17. I'm not sure if I ever want to get married or have any kids but I do
like kids and I might as well adopt one since there are so many
18. I wish I could play sports, but can't since I get dizzy a lot
19. I am 4'10
20. I want to study literature and photography in college and more
21. I want to become more independent and live on my own
22. I am a very shy person and don't like to act stupid in front of people
23. I don't like to talk in front of people who I don't know because
i get shy and embarrassed
24. I think everything is embarrassing
25. I don't want people to hate me if i say the wrong things
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